Interview with kinkster Latex.rush
“My interest in the fetish community has made me closer to myself and the person I want to be”
published on 30 September 2020
Hello Kai, what does Fetish mean to you?
Fetish is about the community of people who were seen as misfits and finding creative ways to express yourself within your fetishes. I’ve had a few encounters with some amazing kinksters throughout my journey. A local (retired) Kinkster in my community I had met back in early 2019 shared his experiences with me, gifted me with his gear & taught me everything he knew. In the same year I met Jacen Zuh; during this time I was going through a weird identity crisis and he delivered some words that calmed my storm looking back on it. I love the personal connections I’ve made thus far in the community. It’s not the sex or the gear that keeps me coming back, it’s the people. I honestly don’t get to live out my fetish life as much as I’d like, I feel like I get to live it out in my work. I am a model first before a Kinkster. But I love how I am able to incorporate the two in the same space. I feel like I still get to live out my fetishes by making art from the inspiration I see within the community.
What kinds of fetishes do you have?
I love anything shiny to be honest. My first love will always be leather, I love the smell of leather! It just screams luxury to me and dominance. But after discovering latex and rubber, I found a new sensation. The feeling of the latex hugging my skin just adds a level of confidence. I’m into the natural aroma of a man, though I do love a good cologne; I equally find my partner’s aroma lustful. For the right person [depending on our chemistry] I enjoy being submissive and having that power exchange. I love bondage but mainly rope bondage is oddly relaxing for me. I’m a busy body so it’s nice to just do nothing every now and then. I’m open to trying new kinks to have the experience.
Can you describe situations and how you felt, when you discovered your fetish first?
I recall myself watching the matrix trilogy and becoming instantly intrigued with the fashion. I remember watching the sense when Trinity was introduced and just loved her whole aesthetic. I never thought these two interests would ever meet intersections. I discovered fetish a few years later when me and a neighbor were watching some soft porn and this lady comes in a dominatrix get up. This made me instantly think back to the matrix. I always had a more fashion driven sense when getting into the fetish community, I just felt like I would look hot in gear and the rest is just a plus for me.
Did you as a person change over the years while living out your fetish?
Naturally I believe we change as humans, it’s inevitable. I do feel like my interest in the fetish community has made me closer to myself and the person I want to be. It’s only been a little over a year since being involved with the community and living it out. So we’ll have to see how much of an impact this has on my life years down the line. I do feel like there is a lack of youth and BIPOC (Black, Indigenous and People of Color) within the fetish sense. So I hope to see that change in the coming years.
What kind of conflicts did or do you have, during your journey through your fetish discovery?
The biggest conflict I encounter is not seeing enough people who look like me. I’m pretty open and don’t have any racial hang ups. However too often do I feel sexualized because I am Black. I feel like it would be more comforting to share a fetish sense with someone who’s in my community. People can take advantage of their roles and make the entire experience uncomfortable. I don’t judge people’s kinks however race play is something I never understood nor do I have the intentions of figuring it out. Considering it’s history I think people who partake in such sense only reenforce the issues of racial tension.
You talked about prejudices within the community; can you elaborate on that?
When you look at the fetish community what comes to mind? Mainly white men in leather, husky/buff men, European standard of attractive. It can make people outside of these standards hesitant on attaching themselves to such a standard if they’re not going to be recognized for their individuality. But for those who put these differences aside and still join – they’re more than likely sexualized due to society’s stereotypes. Examples of that is black men automatically being searched after because allegedly we all have big d*cks. Asian men for having a “tight ***” , hell if you’re circumcise or not you’ll be judged for that too. From my experience – people tend to look at me as a sexual satisfaction and justify their racial prejudice/behaviors by saying they have a black friend/slept with someone who’s black etc. It’s sad because some BIPOC enables this behavior and don’t call it out. It only strengthens the stereotype.
How is the relation of your fetish to your sexuality?
I often feel like I live two lives and I say that because I tend to leave the two separate. I won’t rush it into any of my relationships because I have to wait until I feel comfortable sharing that part of myself. Plus I feel like it can be intimidating.
What means intimacy, privacy and self-expression for you when practicing your fetish?
Trust is where it all begins. From my partner’s, to people leading the sense and even down to the photographers I shoot with. I’ve had some bad encounters with all of these example but I’ve learned and grown from those bad experiences.
Does your fetish take place, apart from the sexual level, in your every-day-life?
Not really, this is a role I play but is very much still real in my life. I don’t get to play this role often, but between my partner and I he gets to see small glimpses of my kinky side in different ways while respecting his limits.
What are your next plans or aims in terms of your fetish?
As an artist I intend to continue to create, after seeing how well received my Zine/Photo kink book: Volume 101 was taken, I’m in the process of the next book and working on much more. I love creating art and feel like it’s what the community lacks. I’m hoping my efforts influence more BIPOC to join the fetish community. I’m hoping to have my next book finished by early to mid 2021. I’m gonna be working with a lot of great artist + collaborating with some kinksters within the feitsh community. I look forward to y’all seeing the turn out.
Kai, thanks for this interview!
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